Is it March already? Seriously – time has been flying. It may have had something to do with the dreamy 3 weeks I just spent in Europe, but I really do feel like life has been moving in fast forward the last little while. And I’ve barely been making time to enjoy it.
I love going away for extended periods of time because I can take a step back from my life and look at it from a distance. Unfortunately, I always see the same things – crazy girl living a fast-paced, jam-packed, “never say no,” must-fit-it-all-in life. And suddenly I find myself dropped into the middle of somewhere like Venice or Paris or Cancun, and I’m shell-shocked. I can’t recall the days leading up to the trip because they were so frantic, as I tried to tie up all the loose ends.
But the joyous part is that it’s all just a little bit hilarious.
When I take a step back, I can’t help but laugh at the disgusting amounts of effort I put into making everything absolutely 100% perfect in my day-to-day life. It is seriously amusing (and somewhat alarming) at the time and energy I put into things I honestly do NOT care about. But I don’t see that until I look at things from a distance.
I realized something while I was away. There are a select few things in my life that I really want. And I never give them enough focus because I spend my time doing all the things I think I “should be doing.” Trust me, I know how familiar this sounds – I cannot count the times that this has been an epiphany on this blog. But clearly something is not sticking.
So, staying true to form, I’m going to make a list. A reminder, that these are the things that matter to me most; these are the things that I want in my life and that I should not be willing to sacrifice so easily:
1.) Writing – this blog is one of the best things in my life, and I have posted so infrequently in the last few months. I miss it. And I miss writing.
2.) Personal Connections – my family and friends are incredibly important to me, and so are the connections that I’ve been building creatively and through my blog. I want to continue developing my creative connections, and I’ve got big ideas brewing for this.
3.) Music – I did not realize how much I missed having music in my life regularly until I recently was invited to join Aliqua. I now have big ambitions in the music realm, including performing and writing. Time to focus on those.
4.) Creativity/Colour/Fresh Air – I don’t really know how to explain this one because it’s more of a feeling. But I want more of it in my life.
5.) Movement/Health – Before I went away, I had gotten to the point where I felt like I *had* to work out, or go to yoga, or go for a run. I don’t want to feel like it’s a chore. I want to feel like I have the time to truly enjoy being active.
6.) Love – dedicating time to my personal relationships is really crucial right now. I’m in a good place and I want to keep it that way
7.) Solitude – I need to feel free to spend time alone. It’s an essential part of my sanity and peace of mind.
8.) Good Food – I admit, this one seems a little trivial compared to the other “big” ones above, but I seriously get such satisfaction out of eating good food. So, it’s going on the list, dammit!
My goal – make it so that each day only contains things that I look forward to.
I’m very, very close.