Lately I’ve been really curious about the power that my thoughts and state-of mind have over my general well-being. A few weeks ago, I was going crazy with boredom because I kept telling myself I had “nothing to do.”
This morning I woke up, and when that seemingly giant list of things to do started waltzing through my brain, I immediately got that familiar stress-case feeling I get when I think “I’m too busy.”
And yet, I still have the timely luxury of sitting here in Starbucks, typing this fine blog post for you people.
(by the way, there is a couple across from me here, alternately sucking on eachother’s fingers. I want to stare at them so I can figure out what the hell they are doing, but I don’t want to appear rude)
And so, it leaves me wondering – am I manifesting my own anxiety? And if so, how much of it am i manifesting? How much of it is because of the weather? (I’m very much believing that the crap weather is intensely affecting my moods lately). How much of it is directly related to my list of things to do (or lack of)?
I guess I want to try and reframe the way I approach my own attitude to time. If I mentally tell myself that “you have lots of time,” will I be able to shake that stress-case feeling that I get sometimes? Alternatively, if I give myself a “you’re blessed to have this much free time” pep talk, whenever I’m feeling underwhelmed with things to do, will I be able to curb those feelings of crazy boredom?
I’m not sure. But I’m willing to give it a go.
As long as it’s sunny outside.